奥兰多orlando (英文版)作者:弗吉尼亚·伍尔芙-第14章

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hounds　of　the　Royal　strain；　male　and　female。　Bring　them　back　without　delay。　For’；　he　murmured；　scarcely　above　his　breath　as　he　turned　to　his　books；　‘I　have　done　with　men。’

The　footman；　who　was　perfectly　trained　in　his　duties；　bowed　and　disappeared。　He　fulfilled　his　task　so　efficiently　that　he　was　back　that　day　three　weeks；　leading　in　his　hand　a　leash　of　the　finest　elk–hounds；　one　of　whom；　a　female；　gave　birth　that　very　night　under　the　dinner–table　to　a　litter　of　eight　fine　puppies。　Orlando　had　them　brought　to　his　bedchamber。

‘For’；　he　said；　‘I　have　done　with　men。’

Nevertheless；　he　paid　the　pension　quarterly。

Thus；　at　the　age　of　thirty；　or　thereabouts；　this　young　Nobleman　had　not　only　had　every　experience　that　life　has　to　offer；　but　had　seen　the　worthlessness　of　them　all。　Love　and　ambition；　women　and　poets　were　all　equally　vain。　Literature　was　a　farce。　The　night　after　reading　Greene’s　Visit　to　a　Nobleman　in　the　Country；　he　burnt　in　a　great　conflagration　fifty–seven　poetical　works；　only　retaining　‘The　Oak　Tree’；　which　was　his　boyish　dream　and　very　short。　Two　things　alone　remained　to　him　in　which　he　now　put　any　trust：　dogs　and　nature；　an　elk–hound　and　a　rose　bush。　The　world；　in　all　its　variety；　life　in　all　its　plexity；　had　shrunk　to　that。　Dogs　and　a　bush　were　the　whole　of　it。　So　feeling　quit　of　a　vast　mountain　of　illusion；　and　very　naked　in　consequence；　he　called　his　hounds　to　him　and　strode　through　the　Park。

So　long　had　he　been　secluded；　writing　and　reading；　that　he　had　half　forgotten　the　amenities　of　nature；　which　in　June　can　be　great。　When　he　reached　that　high　mound　whence　on　fine　days　half　of　England　with　a　slice　of　Wales　and　Scotland　thrown　in　can　be　seen；　he　flung　himself　under　his　favourite　oak　tree　and　felt　that　if　he　need　never　speak　to　another　man　or　woman　so　long　as　he　lived；　if　his　dogs　did　not　develop　the　faculty　of　speech；　if　he　never　met　a　poet　or　a　Princess　again；　he　might　make　out　what　years　remained　to　him　in　tolerable　content。

Here　he　came　then；　day　after　day；　week　after　week；　month　after　month；　year　after　year。　He　saw　the　beech　trees　turn　golden　and　the　young　ferns　unfurl；　he　saw　the　moon　sickle　and　then　circular；　he　saw—but　probably　the　reader　can　imagine　the　passage　which　should　follow　and　how　every　tree　and　plant　in　the　neighbourhood　is　described　first　green；　then　golden；　how　moons　rise　and　suns　set；　how　spring　follows　winter　and　autumn　summer；　how　night　succeeds　day　and　day　night；　how　there　is　first　a　storm　and　then　fine　weather；　how　things　remain　much　as　they　are　for　two　or　three　hundred　years　or　so；　except　for　a　little　dust　and　a　few　cobwebs　which　one　old　woman　can　sweep　up　in　half　an　hour；　a　conclusion　which；　one　cannot　help　feeling；　might　have　been　reached　more　quickly　by　the　simple　statement　that　‘Time　passed’　（here　the　exact　amount　could　be　indicated　in　brackets）　and　nothing　whatever　happened。

But　Time；　unfortunately；　though　it　makes　animals　and　vegetables　bloom　and　fade　with　amazing　punctuality；　has　no　such　simple　effect　upon　the　mind　of　man。　The　mind　of　man；　moreover；　works　with　equal　strangeness　upon　the　body　of　time。　An　hour；　once　it　lodges　in　the　queer　element　of　the　human　spirit；　may　be　stretched　to　fifty　or　a　hundred　times　its　clock　length；　on　the　other　hand；　an　hour　may　be　accurately　represented　on　the　timepiece　of　the　mind　by　one　second。　This　extraordinary　discrepancy　between　time　on　the　clock　and　time　in　the　mind　is　less　known　than　it　should　be　and　deserves　fuller　investigation。　But　the　biographer；　whose　interests　are；　as　we　have　said；　highly　restricted；　must　confine　himself　to　one　simple　statement：　when　a　man　has　reached　the　age　of　thirty；　as　Orlando　now　had；　time　when　he　is　thinking　bees　inordinately　long；　time　when　he　is　doing　bees　inordinately　short。　Thus　Orlando　gave　his　orders　and　did　the　business　of　his　vast　estates　in　a　flash；　but　directly　he　was　alone　on　the　mound　under　the　oak　tree；　the　seconds　began　to　round　and　fill　until　it　seemed　as　if　they　would　never　fall。　They　filled　themselves；　moreover；　with　the　strangest　variety　of　objects。　For　not　only　did　he　find　himself　confronted　by　problems　which　have　puzzled　the　wisest　of　men；　such　as　What　is　love？　What　friendship？　What　truth？　but　directly　he　came　to　think　about　them；　his　whole　past；　which　seemed　to　him　of　extreme　length　and　variety；　rushed　into　the　falling　second；　swelled　it　a　dozen　times　its　natural　size；　coloured　it　a　thousand　tints；　and　filled　it　with　all　the　odds　and　ends　in　the　universe。

In　such　thinking　（or　by　whatever　name　it　should　be　called）　he　spent　months　and　years　of　his　life。　It　would　be　no　exaggeration　to　say　that　he　would　go　out　after　breakfast　a　man　of　thirty　and　e　home　to　dinner　a　man　of　fifty–five　at　least。　Some　weeks　added　a　century　to　his　age；　others　no　more　than　three　seconds　at　most。　Altogether；　the　task　of　estimating　the　length　of　human　life　（of　the　animals’　we　presume　not　to　speak）　is　beyond　our　capacity；　for　directly　we　say　that　it　is　ages　long；　we　are　reminded　that　it　is　briefer　than　the　fall　of　a　rose　leaf　to　the　ground。　Of　the　two　forces　which　alternately；　and　what　is　more　confusing　still；　at　the　same　moment；　dominate　our　unfortunate　numbskulls—brevity　and　diuturnity—Orlando　was　sometimes　under　the　influence　of　the　elephant–footed　deity；　then　of　the　gnat–winged　fly。　Life　seemed　to　him　of　prodigious　length。　Yet　even　so；　it　went　like　a　flash。　But　even　when　it　stretched　longest　and　the　moments　swelled　biggest　and　he　seemed　to　wander　alone　in　deserts　of　vast　eternity；　there　was　no　time　for　the　smoothing　out　and　deciphering　of　those　scored　parchments　which　thirty　years　among　men　and　women　had　rolled　tight　in　his　heart　and　brain。　Long　before　he　had　done　thinking　about　Love　（the　oak　tree　had　put　forth　its　leaves　and　shaken　them　to　the　ground　a　dozen　times　in　the　process）　Ambition　would　jostle　it　off　the　field；　to　be　replaced　by　Friendship　or　Literature。　And　as　the　first　question　had　not　been　settled—What　is　Love？—back　it　would　e　at　the　least　provocation　or　none；　and　hustle　Books　or　Metaphors　of　What　one　lives　for　into　the　margin；　there　to　wait　till　they　saw　their　chance　to　rush　into　the　field　again。　What　made　the　process　still　longer　was　that　it　was　profusely　illustrated；　not　only　with　pictures；　as　that　of　old　Queen　Elizabeth；　laid　on　her　tapestry　couch　in　rose–coloured　brocade　with　an　ivory　snuff–box　in　her　hand　and　a　gold–hilted　sword　by　her　side；　but　with　scents—she　was　strongly　perfumed—and　with　sounds；　the　stags　were　barking　in　Richmond　Park　that　winter’s　day。　And　so；　the　thought　of　love　would　be　all　ambered　over　with　snow　and　winter；　with　log　fires　burning；　with　Russian　women；　gold　swords；　and　the　bark　of　stags；　with　old　King　James’　slobbering　and　fireworks　and　sacks　of　treasure　in　the　holds　of　Elizabethan　sailing　ships。　Every　single　thing；　once　he　tried　to　dislodge　it　from　its　place　in　his　mind；　he　found　thus　cumbered　with　other　matter　like　the　lump　of　glass　which；　after　a　year　at　the　bottom　of　the　sea；　is　grown　about　with　bones　and　dragon–flies；　and　coins　and　the　tresses　of　drowned　women。

‘Another　metaphor　by　Jupiter！’　he　would　exclaim　as　he　said　this　（which　will　show　the　disorderly　and　circuitous　way　in　which　his　mind　worked　and　explain　why　the　oak　tree　flowered　and　faded　so　often　before　he　came　to　any　conclusion　about　Love）。　‘And　what’s　the　point　of　it？’　he　would　ask　himself。　‘Why　not　say　simply　in　so　many　words—’　and　then　he　would　try　to　think　for　half　an　hour；—or　was　it　two　years　and　a　half？—how　to　say　simply　in　so　many　words　what　love　is。　‘A　figure　like　that　is　manifestly　untruthful；’　he　argued；　‘for　no　dragon–fly；　unless　under　very　exceptional　circumstances；　could　live　at　the　bottom　of　the　sea。　And　if　literature　is　not　the　Bride　and　Bedfellow　of　Truth；　what　is　she？　Confound　it　all；’　he　cried；　‘why　say　Bedfellow　when　one’s　already　said　Bride？　Why　not　simply　say　what　one　means　and　leave　it？’

So　then　he　tried　saying　the　grass　is　green　and　the　sky　is　blue　and　so　to　propitiate　the　austere　spirit　of　poetry　whom　still；　though　at　a　great　distance；　he　could　not　help　reverencing。　‘The　sky　is　blue；’　he　said；　‘the　grass　is　green。’　Looking　up；　he　saw　that；　on　the　contrary；　the　sky　is　like　the　veils　which　a　thousand　Madonnas　have　let　fall　from　their　hair；　and　the　grass　fleets　and　darkens　like　a　flight　of　girls　fleeing　the　embraces　of　hairy　satyrs　from　enchanted　woods。　‘Upon　my　word；’　he　said　（for　he　had　fallen　into　the　bad　habit　of　speaking　aloud）；　‘I　don’t　see　that　one’s　more　true　than　another。　Both　are　utterly　false。’　And　he　despaired　of　being　able　to　solve　the　problem　of　what　poetry　is　and　what　truth　is　and　fell　into　a　deep　dejection。

And　here　we　may　profit　by　a　pause　in　his　soliloquy　to　reflect　how　odd　it　was　to　see　Orlando　stretched　there　on　his　elbow　on　a　June　day　and　to　reflect　that　this　fine　fellow　with　all　his　faculties　about　him　and　a　healthy　body；　witness　cheeks　and　limbs—a　man　who　never　thought　twice　about　heading　a　charge　or　fighting　a　duel—should　be　so　subject　to　the　lethargy　of　thought；　and　rendered　so　susceptible　by　it；　that　when　it　came　to　a　question　of　poetry；　or　his　own　petence　in　it；　he　was　as　shy　as　a　little　girl　behind　her　mother’s　cottage　door。　In　our　belief；　Greene’s　ridicule　of　his　tragedy　hurt　him　as