new moon(暮光之城-新月英文版)-第37章

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There　was　nothing　I　could　do。　There　were　no　precautions　I　could　take。　There　
was　no　place　I　could　hide。　
There　was　no　one　who　could　help　me。　
I　realized；　with　a　nauseous　roll　of　my　stomach；　that　the　situation　was　worse　
than　even　that。　Because　all　
those　facts　applied　to　Charlie；　too。　My　father；　sleeping　one　room　away　from　
me；　was　just　a　hairsbreadth　
off　the　heart　of　the　target　that　was　centered　on　me。　My　scent　would　lead　them　
here；　whether　I　was　here　
or　not。　
The　tremors　rocked　me　until　my　teeth　chattered。　
To　calm　myself；　I　fantasized　the　impossible：　I　imagined　the　big　wolves　
catching　up　to　Laurent　in　the　
woods　and　massacring　the　indestructible　immortal　the　way　they　would　any　normal　
person。　Despite　the　
absurdity　of　such　a　vision；　the　idea　forted　me。　If　the　wolves　got　him；　then　
he　couldn't　tell　Victoria　I　
was　here　all　alone。　If　he　didn't　return；　maybe　she'd　think　the　Cullens　were　
still　protecting　me。　If　only　the　
wolves　could　win　such　a　fight　
My　good　vampires　were　never　ing　back；　how　soothing　it　was　to　imagine　that　
the　other　kind　could　
also　disappear。　
I　squeezed　my　eyes　tight　together　and　waited　for　unconsciousness—almost　eager　
for　my　nightmare　to　
start。　Better　that　than　the　pale；　beautiful　face　that　smiled　at　me　now　from　
behind　my　lids。　
In　my　imagination；　Victoria's　eyes　were　black　with　thirst；　bright　with　
anticipation；　and　her　lips　curled　back　
from　her　gleaming　teeth　in　pleasure。　Her　red　hair　was　brilliant　as　fire；　it　
blew　chaotically　around　her　wild　
face。　
Laurent's　words　repeated　in　my　head。　If　you　knew　what　she　had　planned　for　you　
　
I　pressed　my　fist　against　my　mouth　to　keep　from　screaming。　
　11。　CULT
EACH　TIME　THAT　I　OPENED　MY　EYES　TO　THE　MORNING　light　and　realized　I'd　lived　
through　
another　night　was　a　surprise　to　me。　After　the　surprise　wore　off；　my　heart　
would　start　to　race　and　my　
palms　would　sweat；　I　couldn't　really　breathe　again　until　I'd　gotten　up　and　
ascertained　that　Charlie　had　
survived　as　well。　
I　could　tell　he　was　worried—watching　me　jump　at　any　loud　sound；　or　my　face　
suddenly　go　white　for　no　
reason　that　he　could　see。　From　the　questions　he　asked　now　and　then；　he　seemed　
to　blame　the　change　on　
Jacob's　continued　absence。　
The　terror　that　was　always　foremost　in　my　thoughts　usually　distracted　me　from　
the　fact　that　another　week　
had　passed；　and　Jacob　still　hadn't　called　me。　But　when　I　was　able　to　
concentrate　on　my　normal　life—if　
my　life　was　really　ever　normal—this　upset　me。　
I　missed　him　horribly。　
It　had　been　bad　enough　to　be　alone　before　I　was　scared　silly。　Now；　more　than　
ever；　I　yearned　for　his　
carefree　laugh　and　his　infectious　grin。　I　needed　the　safe　sanity　of　his　
homemade　garage　and　his　warm　
hand　around　my　cold　fingers。　
I'd　half　expected　him　to　call　on　Monday。　If　there　had　been　some　progress　with　
Embry；　wouldn't　he　want　
to　report　it？　I　wanted　to　believe　that　it　was　worry　for　his　friend　that　was　
occupying　all　his　time；　not　that　he　
was　just　giving　up　on　me。　
I　called　him　Tuesday；　but　no　one　answered。　Were　the　phone　lines　still　having　
problems？　Or　had　Billy　
invested　in　caller　I。D。？　
On　Wednesday　I　called　every　half　hour　until　after　eleven　at　night；　desperate　
to　hear　the　warmth　of　
Jacob's　voice。　
Thursday　I　sat　in　my　truck　in　front　of　my　house—with　the　locks　pushed　down—
keys　in　hand；　for　a　solid　
hour。　I　was　arguing　with　myself；　trying　to　justify　a　quick　trip　to　La　Push；　
but　I　couldn't　do　it。　
I　knew　that　Laurent　had　gone　back　to　Victoria　by　now。　If　I　went　to　La　Push；　I　
took　the　chance　of　leading　
one　of　them　there。　What　if　they　caught　up　to　me　when　Jake　was　nearby？　As　much　
as　it　hurt　me；　I　knew　it　
was　better　for　Jacob　that　he　was　avoiding　me。　Safer　for　him。　
It　was　bad　enough　that　I　couldn't　figure　out　a　way　to　keep　Charlie　safe。　
Nighttime　was　the　most　likely　
time　that　they　would　e　looking　ior　me；　and　what　could　I　say　to　get　Charlie　
out　of　the　house？　If　I　told　
him　the　truth；　he'd　have　me　locked　up　in　a　rubber　room　somewhere。　I　would　have　
endured　
that—weled　it；　even—if　it　could　have　kept　him　safe。　But　Victoria　would　
still　e　to　his　house　first；　
looking　for　me。　Maybe；　if　she　found　me　here；　that　would　be　enough　for　her。　
Maybe　she　would　just　leave　
when　she　was　done　with　me。　
So　I　couldn't　run　away。　Even　if　I　could；　where　would　I　go？　To　Renee？　I　
shuddered　at　the　thought　of　
dragging　my　lethal　shadows　into　my　mother's　safe；　sunny　world。　I　would　never　
endanger　her　that　way。　
The　worry　was　eating　a　hole　in　my　stomach。　Soon　I　would　have　matching　
punctures。　
That　night；　Charlie　did　me　another　favor　and　called　Harry　again　to　see　if　the　
Blacks　were　out　of　town。　
Harry　reported　that　Billy　had　attended　the　council　meeting　Wednesday　night；　
and　never　mentioned　
anything　about　leaving。　Charlie　warned　me　not　to　make　a　nuisance　of　myself—
Jacob　would　call　when　he　
got　around　to　it。　
Friday　afternoon；　as　I　drove　home　from　school；　it　hit　me　out　of　the　blue。　
I　wasn't　paying　attention　to　the　familiar　road；　letting　the　sound　of　the　
engine　deaden　my　brain　and　silence　
the　worries；　when　my　subconscious　delivered　a　verdict　it　must　have　been　
working　on　for　some　time　
without　my　knowledge。　
As　soon　as　I　thought　of　it；　I　felt　really　stupid　for　not　seeing　it　sooner。　
Sure。　I'd　had　a　lot　on　my　
mind—revenue…obsessed　vampires；　giant　mutant　wolves；　a　ragged　hole　in　the　
center　of　my　chest—but　
when　I　laid　the　evidence　out；　it　was　embarrassingly　obvious。　
Jacob　avoiding　me。　Charlie　saying　he　looked　strange；　upset。　。　。　。　Billy's　
vague；　unhelpful　answers。　
Holy　crow；　I　knew　exactly　what　was　going　on　with　Jacob。　
It　was　Sam　Uley。　Even　my　nightmares　had　been　trying　to　tell　me　that。　Sam　had　
gotten　to　Jacob。　
Whatever　was　happening　to　the　other　boys　on　the　reservation　had　reached　out　
and　stolen　my　friend。　
He'd　been　sucked　into　Sam's　cult。　
He　hadn't　given　up　on　me　at　all；　I　realized　with　a　rush　of　feeling。　
I　let　my　truck　idle　in　front　of　my　house。　What　should　I　do？　I　weighed　the　
dangers　against　each　other。　
If　I　went　looking　for　Jacob；　I　risked　the　chance　of　Victoria　or　Laurent　
finding　me　with　him。　
If　I　didn't　go　after　him；　Sam　would　pull　him　deeper　into　his　frightening；　
pulsory　gang。　Maybe　it　would　
be　too　late　if　I　didn't　act　soon。　
It　had　been　a　week；　and　no　vampires　had　e　for　me　yet。　A　week　was　more　than　
enough　time　for　them　
to　have　returned；　so　I　must　not　be　a　priority。　Most　likely；　as　I'd　decided　
before；　they　would　e　for　me　
at　night。　The　chances　of　them　following　me　to　La　Push　were　much　lower　than　the　
chance　of　losing　Jacob　
to　Sam。　
It　was　worth　the　danger　of　the　secluded　forest　road。　This　was　no　idle　visit　to　
see　what　was　going　on。　I　
knew　what　was　going　on。　This　was　a　rescue　mission。　I　was　going　to　talk　to　
Jacob—kidnap　him　if　I　had　
to。　I'd　once　seen　a　PBS　show　on　deprogramming　the　brainwashed。　There　had　to　be　
some　kind　of　cure。　
I　decided　I'd　better　call　Charlie　first。　Maybe　whatever　was　going　on　down　in　
La　Push　was　something　the　
police　should　be　involved　in。　I　dashed　inside；　in　a　hurry　to　be　on　my　way。　
Charlie　answered　the　phone　it　the　station　himself。　
〃Chief　Swan。〃　
〃Dad；　it's　Bella。〃　
〃What's　wrong？'〃　
I　couldn't　argue　with　his　doomsday　assumption　this　time。　My　voice　was　shaking。　
〃I'm　worried　about　Jacob。〃　
〃Why？〃　he　asked；　surprised　by　the　unexpected　topic。　
〃I　think　I　think　something　weird　is　going　on　down　at　the　reservation。　Jacob　
told　me　about　some　strange　
stuff　happening　with　the　other　boys　his　age。　Now　he's　acting　the　same　way　and　
I'm　scared。〃　
〃What　kind　of　stuff？〃　He　used　his　professional；　police　business　voice。　That　
was　good；　he　was　taking　me　
seriously。　
〃First　he　was　scared；　and　then　he　was　avoiding　me；　and　now　I'm　afraid　he's　
part　of　that　bizarre　gang　
down　there；　Sam's　gang。　Sam　Uley's　gang。〃　
〃Sam　Uley？〃　Charlie　repeated；　surprised　again。　
〃Yes。〃　
Charlie's　voice　was　more　relaxed　when　he　answered。　〃I　think　you've　got　it　
wrong；　Bells。　Sam　Uley　is　a　
great　kid。　Well；　he's　a　man　now。　A　good　son。　You　should　hear　Billy　talk　about　
him。　He's　really　doing　
wonders　with　the　youth　on　the　reservation。　He's　the　one　who—〃　Charlie　broke　
off　mid…sentence；　and　I　
guessed　that　he　had　been　about　to　make　a　reference　to　the　night　I'd　gotten　
lost　in　the　woods。　I　moved　on　
quickly。　
〃Dad；　it's　not　like　that。　Jacob　was　scared　ofhim。〃　
〃Did　you　talk　to　Billy　about　this？〃　He　was　trying　to　soothe　me　now。　I'd　lost　
him　as　soon　as　I'd　mentioned　
Sam。　
〃Billy's　not　concerned。〃　
〃Well；　Bella；　then　I'm　sure　it's　okay。　Jacob's　a　kid；　he　was　probably　just　
messing　around。　I'm　sure　he's　
fine。　He　can't　spend　every　waking　minute　with　you；　after　all。〃　
〃This　isn't　about　me；〃　I　insisted；　but　the　battle　was　lost。　
〃I　don't　think　you　need　to　worry　about　this。　Let　Billy　take　care　of　Jacob。〃　
〃Charlie〃　My　voice　was　starting　to　sound　whiney。　
〃Bells；　I　got　a　lot　on　my　plate　right　now。　Two　tourists　have　gone　missing　off　
a　trail　outside　crescent　lake。〃　
There　was　an　anxious　edge　to　his　voice。　〃This　wolf　problem　is　getting　out　of　
hand。〃　
I　was　momentarily　distracted—stunned；　really—by　his　news。　There　was　no　way　
the　wolves　could　have　
survived　a　match…up　with　Laurent　
〃Are　you　su